C'est la vie

Saturday, July 29, 2006

No spectacular events to write abt actually. Hmm let's see.. went to JB last wkend. Finally went to the much hyped abt new mall - the Aeon Tebrau or Jusco (watever they call it). And also managed to have dinner at that kelong seafood restaurant near the 2nd link that everyone's been raving abt. Aeon reminds me of Suntec for reasons tt escape me. But Hubs, Meike & Faz disagree.. Haha. We had a hearty Italian meal for lunch. And stocked up on Dunkin Donuts & Breadtalk. Oooohhh... The chicken floss bread is heavenly alright!! It's so light and it melts in your mouth!!! Wonder when they're gonna go halal over here. As for the seafood place, the satay was fab. And so was the fish. The rest was ok i guess. But i guess it wouldn't be fair for me to judge. Since i prefer seafood to be cooked either Chinese or Thai style. Over there, the dishes are purely cooked true Malay kampong style. So it was quite a refreshing change actually. The ambience was cool though. Very similar to the one in Bintan. Nice!

And earlier on, we just sent Hil for his MMR jab at the polyclinic. Poor baby.. he cried as the Nurse withdrew the needle from his arm. I can emphatize with that cos his Mama has got phobia with needles too. Hehe. Anyway, the Nurse warned us that he may be bogged down with fever in 5 - 7 days time. So i muz remember to get ready his Braun thermometer and medication..

After tt we also dropped by Juli's baby shower (Majlis Cukur Rambut) for her 2nd princess, Shaniz. And it was a true bonus for us - cos we got to meet Farah's new princess, Danisha too! Felt guilty cos I hadnt gotten ard to visit Farah yet. Must make it a pt to go over soon. Hilman was oblivious to the babies ard him. Doubt he is ready to accept having a younger sibling ard the house. Anw, tt's fine with us. Cos we too aren't ready. Like what the Malays say, belum puas playing with him. And watching him grow.

Just a few days ago, he showed us how he can easily open the kitchen and the main doors. Hardly 2 days later, he happily opened the gate.. closed it behind him. And said bye-bye to us!! And the day right after, he was able to identify the key to the main gate. It's only a matter of days before he wld be able to slot in the key and unlock the gate. Fuuyohh all these at 15 mths!! Kids these days sure grow fast! And in 3 mths, he will officially become a toddler. It feels like just 3 - 4 mths ago that I just gave birth to him..

I am looking at my baby sleeping so peacefully now. He looks so serene , makes me want to cuddle and hug and protect him from any danger. Don't grow up too fast, ok darling? It is a big, big world out there. And Mama wants to protect you as long as I can.

Hmm reminds me of the JB trip. I was going crazy being separated from Hil from morning till nyte. Not to mention guilty like hell. It was after all both our off day and we did not spend quality time with him. I went straight to his room to wake him up. And cuddled and read to him till he fell asleep again on our bed.

Me & Hubs are planning to go for a short trip to Bangkok this yr. And this time , Hilman isnt coming along. Wonder how I will take it. I'll prob go crazy over there. And call 2 to 3x per day to check on him. My heart aches each time just thinking abt it. But every marriage needs some spicing up every now and then. We haven't been on a trip alone since Hil was born. And when we do go out alone, we normally schedule them in the evenings so we have the day ahead to play with him.

Hopefully when the time comes, I will be able to handle it. And me & Fithri wld both enjoy each other's company there..

Cheers @ 11:54 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

I was blog surfing this morning while uploading more pictures on my own one. Was quite surprised to see a lot of familiar nicknames and faces..

Was once part of that group before. Religiously went for wkly gatherings and what not.

Think i abrubtly stopped going on IRC, Alamak and what have you after I met Fit. My life somehow automatically revolved only around him and our family.

I have to however thank whoever who invented the IRC. Or I would have never been the luckiest woman alive today. Why? I have found 2 important elements in my life that I don't think I can do without.

1) TRUE FRIENDSHIP!! I met 2 cool gals - Aida & Diana. In just a short span of time, we became fast friends.

Fast forward to today, we have gone through a lot of rough episodes together. But it was those times that made us the stronger women we are today.

To my lovely Diana: My respect to you, gal! If you are strong enough to go thru all that has happened in yr life, I figure nothing can wind u down at all! I still believe that you will someday find the love of yr life who will complete you, my friend..

To the Happening Mama Aida: I am really blessed to have you as part of my life. It is truly a bonus that we could really experience the major milestones in our lives around the same time. Think of it! We got married just like 1 mth apart?? Gave birth to our 1st baby within the same yr?? Err.. but nope I am still not ready for my 2nd one yet. Do not pass the baton to me yet! Haha.. But I sure know who to seek advice from when the time comes!

2. LOVE OF MY LIFE
Yes.. That was how I found the Love of my Life. My lovely hubby.. the father to my precious little one. I can't thank him enough for everything that he has done. And being so accommodating to my needs. Thank you, baby..

So thankful I am that I am fine with him taking "Family Day Off" today. It is not everytime I am so nice. Hehe ;p

Hope you will enjoy yrself at the Bay Beats later! I shall use the time fruitfully to bond with my other love of my life later :)

Cheers @ 1:15 PM

Friday, July 14, 2006

I had a customer earlier today who brought along his grandson when he came to renew his motor insurance. The boy was in his school uniform. And the grandpa was very concerned whether the boy was hungry. They were heading for his tuition next. And the grandson had not taken his lunch...

Reminded me of when I was in primary school. That was how caring and doting Yai was to me. Can still remember when I have left behind my books or assignments at home and I would asked him to bring them to school. And travelling in public transport from Jurong to Holland Rd is no joke.

Knowing I would get a scolding if I had asked Abah or Mama instead, I would always turn to Yai. And those times I was forced to eat vege, Yai would eat them for me. Just so I wouldn't get scolded.

And those times I went to the mosque with him on his bicycle. Although the idea was to initially escape practising extra Maths sums, doing Assessment Books.. it gradually became our "private time" together. Mind u.. I was a heavy gal back then. So it was not an easy feat for Yai to cycle to and fro everyday. I was so proud each time i hear him singing the azan.

I was too young to understand when Yai first started to show symptoms of Alzheimer. It was in fact fun for us at first to tease him when he slowly lost his memory. Only when the once caring, doting and affectionate Yai that we once know became physically agressive towards all of us that I realised that we have lost that significant side of him.

It was heartbreaking when his health slowly worsened. And I have never fully forgiven myself as I feel that I am partly to be blamed when he had that nasty fall.

Yai passed away peacefully on 01/10/2000 in the presence of myself, Meike, Cik Mala & Iman.

I knew that my life partner has to fill in the space that Yai has created in my heart. He has to possess that special qualities that Yai had. And yes, I have found the man.

In him I trust that I will be taken care of dearly. Just like how Yai had.

Even Mama commented how similar both of them are.. soft-spoken, patient, loving, and that familiar loud "nose-blowing" sounds especially in the morning.

Just when I have came to terms with Yai's death, Allah has decided the time has come for Nyai to leave the world.

It has been more than 6 mths since Nyai has left us. But the pain that lingers within me is still so raw. It is almost as if she has just left us yesterday.

It took me years to accept that Yai has left us when he passed away 6 years ago. And now it's like history is repeating itself again.

No words can describe the sadness and emptiness that I feel since her demise. There has never been a passing day that I have never thought of her.

I guess I just took it for granted that she will be with us in a long time to come.

I will always value those little things that she has done or given to me. My 1st (and only) necklace, my blender when we moved into our own flat, Hil's stroller. Such are the little but valuable things that she has given me. She may not be as affectionate as how Yai was with us before. But she sure has her own special ways all the same.

Nevertheless, I am thankful that she has lived long enough to see her oldest grandaughter settling down and have her 1st baby. Thank you Yai and Nyai for giving me this chance to hold on to these memories.

May your souls reside amongst those destined for Heaven. And may your souls be blessed by Allah. Amin.

Cheers @ 9:59 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

YaWnnnn~!!! Didnt sleep @ all last nyte.. Decided to catch the Brazil-Portugal game. Poor Brazil.. tsk tsk. But then again, it's high time for some attention to be given to the Underdogs.

My body's all sore cos Nick (my trainer) pushed me to the max. And i havent been going as regularly as before. Wobbly knees.. super tired zombie eyes.. WHoa must really catch some sleep today ballz!

Anw, me & Meike had an interesting chat the whole of last nyte. Or rather in the wee hrs earlier today. Haha.. Discussed abt weddings, financial planning etc.

Made me think back of the time when I was in her position. Preparing for my own big day. It's Once in a Lifetime event. But i am of the opinion that people need not get broke over their big day. After all, the important is the years following the Marriage. I have seen too many people ard me who kicked off their marriages with grand weddings, nice renovated homes. Only to leave them with hefty loans.

On a lighter note, I still recall how on my Wedding Day, no one followed me when we bertandang to my Hubby's side. Cos everyone was so bz. Haha tt was so hilarious!!

Cheers @ 1:01 PM

Yeah!!! Finally i am satisfied with the layout of my blog. Spent 3 freaking hrs uploading pixs and what not. Of course, I've gotta thank my wonderful cuz, Maziah who helped me with the whole process.

Can only do this in the wee hrs. When the lil one is fast asleep. Cant bear locking myself up in the room and not playing with him.

Meant to take a nap earlier after returning from Baby Hil's playgym. Ended up playing with him instead. Had only 3 hrs of sleep last nyte cos of the Germany-Argentina match. Germany won btw.. Yeah yeah!! Although i felt quite sad as Argentina played very well too. Not to mention, they are Fithri's fave. England's out too. No surprise to me. They are just not gd enuff yet. My bet is that Germany will meet the mighty Brazil in the Finals. I am rooting for the Germans this time round cos I love the way they play. I like~~~!!!

Oh well.. better catch some sleep now. Got my Personal Training tmr morning. YawnNn!!! Hope i can wake up on time. I need the rest but i've gotta sacrifice to lose weight. The things i do for my hubby... He better appreciates it!!!

Cheers @ 3:14 AM